In her mind, if he had killed Adachi here, it probably would be no harm no foul, but still bother him. Death was meant to be inevitable, inescapable, and when one granted death on another, usually it was damaging.

Usually, but she was far too used to it; and to be ashamed of a desire was just generally not there anymore.

"You wanted vengeance. No reason to be guilty about it - most people in your position would and a few would've succeeded. Even someone like your nephew, I'm sure he struggled with it."

But whether or not it had been Adachi he would've directed that ire at, she doesn't know. She was still missing details about this incident that happened.